Hello friends, sorry it’s been a little while, I have no idea how it’s already the end of August??!!! I have been pretty much AWOL from everybody lately, so if you’re one of the many, many people who haven’t seen me or heard from me this summer, WELL.
I’ve been busy.
And, at risk of sounding hugely melodramatic… my life has changed. It’s strange, looking back, that I haven’t managed to write anything for this blog, because so much has happened, and I think it’s because I have too much to say. I have learned so much about myself, about life, about the universe, that I don’t even know where to start.
It’s funny because I set out to write this about my pet snail, Charlotte. I found him on a salad leaf, just a little baby, and he was just so confident, such a friendly little guy, that I had to keep him. (Actually, I let him out into the yard, and then five guilt-ridden minutes while watching the flock of crows circling overhead, I had to go and find him. I spent longer than I’d like to admit searching for, what is essentially, a very common garden snail, but it was worth it. I found him.) Even now, when I pick him up, he immediately comes out of his shell and stretches out as far as he can, having a good look at you.
I’m spending a lot of time with animals lately. Actually, I spend all of my time with animals. And very little with humans. Days go by, in fact, where I don’t see another human soul.
It’s been awesome.
I’m not lonely, because I have seven horses, thirteen chickens, two cats, a dog, the aforementioned snail, a garden full of plants, and all the birds in the sky to keep me company. I’m not bored, because I have all of them to keep me busy. And I have a revitalised appreciation for nature, which keeps me constantly reverential.
It’s perhaps no surprise that I’ve had a lot of time to think, and thus experienced some sort of spiritual awakening these past couple of months. Of course, maybe you’re reading this and thinking, Hannah is nuts. Maybe I am going totally bonkers! VERY possible!! Crosses my mind, a LOT! But then, if I am going crazy, I’d recommend it to anyone, because it feels great.
Aren’t we all a bit fed up of people anyway? I don’t know if it’s just me, but everything in the world just seems a bit fucked right now. We’re being told we can’t go outside again, or maybe we can, but wear your mask, and avoid using plastic because oh shit climate change is real and we’re too late, so watch out for those forest fires floods famine and storms because those are part of life now, and people are dying, innocent people are dying! people’s hearts are breaking and people’s children are being born surrounded by pain, because of nothing more than greed. it’s so sad. and no wonder Mother Nature is purging us from her system.
So I am finding solace in worshipping Mother Nature like I’ve never done before. It has been revolutionary. I feel like my whole life has aligned to the purpose and passion I’ve found this summer. I’ve been feeling lost for a few years, and although being lost has never concerned me too much, I have wondered where I’m going, and whether I’m going in the right direction. It’s only now, looking back on it, that I realise I was on exactly the right path the whole time.
I know I sound like one of those questionable wall decor that have “inspirational” quotes and immediately embarrass anyone that reads them, so I’m sorry. I didn’t see this from me, either.
Anyway, I just wanted to apologise to anyone that I’ve not been around on social media or really doing much with anybody. This is what I have been doing instead:
- Watching Charlotte excrete disturbingly large poos
- Brushing horses
- Crying on the phone to Seb because I’ve had another life realisation e.g. “Seb! I can do stuff?! I’m… capable… of doing… STUFF????” to which he can only respond: “Hannah, have you eaten anything today?”
- Bird watching
- Cloud watching
- Eating plums off the trees
- Learning French so I can murmur proclamations of love to my carrots en français
- Watching Willem the dog play with the horses (Very Wholesome Content)
- More meditating. A lot of meditating.
So if you see me these next few weeks, just understand that I haven’t had much practice being around human beings lately and I can’t really remember how to have a conversation with anything who doesn’t primarily want me to scratch their belly and feed them treats. I will try not to do this to you. Unless you want that, then I’m sure we can figure something out.
Fancy staying tuned for next time? Pop ya email in below. I’ll try not to make it so weird but I can’t promise anything. Lots of love!!!